Why are symbiotic forces so often at odds? For a while I believed I had to sacrifice making images of things I want in order to fully appreciate the act of creation and the sensation of drawing. Then I thought of the Spanish Romantic Francisco Goya, one of the first artists whom I deeply admired. I was naturally stricken by his painting of a crazed Saturn devouring his headless bloody offspring and the other paintings he created during his downward spiral. And while subject matter is important and fascinating, it’s also clear that Goya had an intimate relationship with the physical paint as well, which is essentially a given at this point in the orbit of whatever heavenly body would best complete the metaphor of visual arts. During the late 18th and into the early 19th centuries, however, this was not the norm, so Goya’s series the Black Paintings were even more disturbing.
As a side note which I find necessary at this point - the ideas I’m expressing in this post are also completely relevant to the work of Michelangelo Merisi da Caravaggio. I spent a lot of time thinking about which of the two I would like to discuss and Goya won due to his seniority in my personal chronology (also thought about writing about them in stereo, but didn't want to anger the art history bitches). The Incredulity of Saint Thomas is one of my absolute favorite paintings for all the reasons here mentioned and those after, and I appreciate how he was much more subtly subversive than that freak Goya. I’m a bit sick of using typically negative descriptors as merits. But I am also much more informed of Goya’s work than that of Caravaggio, so here we are. Side note done.
The Incredulity of Saint Thomas, c. 1601-1602. Thanks, wikipedia.
I think regardless of the subject matter, to devote so much time and energy to painting and thinking about how things are and what they might be shows just as much love of the medium as Hans Hoffman or any of his colleagues. If there’s a moral to this story, it’s that sacrifice shouldn’t be a concern. If I wish to make dragons (why haven’t I done this yet?), but I also want to just draw, that’s not a contradiction unless I make it one. Which I won’t.
He started it: Saturn Devouring His Son, 1819. Thanks, Wikipedia.
Self Portrait in the Studio, 1790-1795. Thanks again, wikipedia.